Today I feel grumpy, annoyed, and gross. Hmph. I thought I was having a good day but it just turned to shit. And nothing really made it turn to shit except my own thoughts. It’s funny how you can do that to yourself. I think it’s good that I’m going back to work to keep my mind busy. I’ve been feeling better about myself body image wise, been juicing for breakfast for almost a month, watching what I eat, and walking. I looked in the mirror and I thought “Wow I think I see a difference” nothing drastic of course but I could tell something had change. Maybe it was just new found confidence. However, that was soon to past when I was having such a hard time finding shoes that fit. Not one pair would fit comfortably. It really upset me and it was just really weird. Growing up I have always had larger feet then the rest of my family, most likely because I’m tall and for a female its hard. No one wants to be called bigfoot. Being over weight sometimes shoes is the only thing that makes me feel normal, but not even cause i’m like 2 sizes bigger than the average female shoe size. Another reason why I think it upset me so much is because I was looking for wedding shoes, the pair I bought are being difficult to break in and I feel as if they are too high, so I thought i’d be easy to find something else. Wrong. Then I go to the store and I can’t find anything I went in looking for. It was just one thing after another. Meh. End pathetic post college girl living in the real world rant.
F is for vodka
U is for vodka
N is for vodka.
"I miss how you wanted me."-six word story, #18 (via modernmethadone)